Phone call

January 25, Monday morning I got a phone call while I was exercising asking me to schedule another appointment to have more tests done because something was wrong with my mammogram I had two weeks ago and to come in asap. Needless to say the time between Monday morning and my Tuesday afternoon appointment was SO long!!

After the phone call, I prayed and  I prayed and prayed and prayed more in that 30 hours then I have in a long time.

 I really did not know what to pray for and told Heavenly Father just that. I said, I am scared,. I am nervous. I am frightened. My worst nightmare could be coming true. I prayed and asked for peace and His support. Instantly I felt peace like I have never felt in my life. Instantly, my heart almost stopped beating, it was so calm and for a moment, I knew everything would be okay. I didn't want to scare anyone else to death, but did anyways. I texted Mike, my Dad and Tifani.  I figured the more prayers by others, the better my chances. I really thought of Grams, she always said the best prayers and was always praying on everyone else's behalf.

Tuesday morning, I got this letter in the mail. Technically it came Friday but Mike went to Klondike all weekend, Mike got the mail Monday but I didn't open this letter til Tuesday morning. Good thing, if I opened this Friday evening and couldn't call to make an appointment til Monday, it would have been a very very very long weeknd! Tifani offered to come sit with me and so did Mike. I didn't know if I wanted Mike to come because he was as scared as I was but am so glad he was there in the waiting room.

 Tuesday, afternoon. I arranged for Lilly to be picked up from preschool. Her teacher, Mrs Donna had tripped when she was out running and broke her foot and rescheduled preschool for the afternoon. Kami took Jack and Lexi and Maddy went to Grace's house.

My nerves were on fire during my appointment (Tuesday afternoon). I honestly was a mess and in the last 30 hours couldn't control my emotions. They were so thin and right on my sleeve.  The technician showed me my screening from 1/14/16 and from 1/5/15. You could see something (it was white) that wasn't their the year before. She said they didn't know what that something was and needed to take more images and do an ultrasound.  She did a second mammo and told me everything looked good (I really couldn't imagine what would look good when their were still images there). She told me she would go show them to the doctor and to wait in this room. My emotions unraveled. I prayed and thanked Heavenly Father again for blessing me. I still really didn't know what was happening except that the technician said it looked good but that the radiologist would like to also do an ultrasound. The ultrasound tech asked me if I was on birth control. Did several images and then went to find the doctor again. He came in and showed me the images and explained what they were. They found several cysts (6-10) on my right breast. Dr said cysts are okay and they just monitor them no surgery. He said with normal people (apparently I'm not normal:) they would see you in 12 months but because my mom died of breast cancer he wants to see me again in 6 months to monitor them. While everything that happened in a 2 day period is still alarming, it is also very do-able. As I  prayed on Monday and immediately felt peace I knew I was okay. Even though I didn't know what was wrong. I'm still so grateful I'm okay!

Here is the second letter I received. Yikes! This is still so scary. Mike's co-worker was just diagnosed with breast cancer. I believe it is 1 in every 4 woman will be diagnosed with it. For know, I am okay and so grateful beyond words for that.

 On a lighter note, look what also came in the mail. Oh boy, I've heard it's funny, that I will laugh, but I also think I will cry. My little girl is growing up.

We are also trying to choose a track for next year. This will be Madison's last year in Elementary. Where has the time gone. We also in January came upon our 6 year mark of living in Utah. We were in Idaho for 5.5 years, in a couple months we will have officially lived in this house the longest of all of our houses (4--not like it's that many).