Who knew this day was going to be so hard for me?
Is it just your first that is hard when they turn 8 or will I go thru this emotion with all 4?
I have dreamed of this day for a thousand years.
The day my sweet baby girl was here.
She surprised us and came 10 days early.
6 lbs ~21 inches ~4:36pm~ Boise, Idaho
6 lbs ~21 inches ~4:36pm~ Boise, Idaho
Growing up I always wanted to name my baby girl after my mom, Brooke,
who died when I was 7 years old.
who died when I was 7 years old.
When it came time to choose a name I decided Brooke should be her middle name and went with Madison for her first. I got Mike to agree to her name (but then again I picked out all of the kids names) by the rhyme Maddy loves Daddy.
7th
And now 8.
This birthday is the one my mom didn't get to see.
I'm so blessed with health to let me be here today.
To celebrate 8 with Maddy.
To witness tomorrow her enter the waters of baptism and become a member of The Church of
Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
But more than anything this birthday makes me miss Mom even more than I thought possible. Maybe her spirit is closer than I think it is because she wanted to be here too so the emotions are right at the surface.
Yesterday while driving I heard A Thousand Years by Christina Perri and the tears couldn't stop flowing.
I guess I too have waited for a thousand years. I have died every day waiting for you. Darling don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years and I'll love you for a thousand more.
One step closer. One step closer.
I don't want my selfishness to ruin this big day for you. This morning your beaming smile was contagious. I'm so excited for your makeover party today with your friends, for dinner tonight and of course a fantastic day tomorrow. Just know how proud both Grandma Brooke and I are of you. I definitely will love you for a thousand years!
4 comments:
I love that you post pictures from all the other birthday years!! Happy birthday Maddy!!
Happy 8th Birthday Maddy! Sorry this one is bittersweet for you. I love that song and now I will think of it differently when I hear it. Hugs to you and I hope tomorrow is a super special day for Maddy.
What a tender post. I named Kara after my mom too. Your children definitely look like each other. Lexi looks a lot lime Madison.
I can so relate with your feelings. I have felt many of those same feelings before in dealing with my mom too!!!
Beautiful post, Kinz! You brought a lot of tears to the surface for me. I hope today is a wonderful day for the both of you!
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